Sometimes I feel like I’m all alone in this world. People seem to pay little attention to me as if I’m an invisible ghost wandering around aimlessly. When I do get attention, it seems to always be in a bad way and ends up with me getting hurt. I mean I know everyone gets hurt, but I seem to get hurt more then most people. Recently, a person who I thought was my friend betrayed my trust and hurt me pretty bad. Lies were told about me and things were said to try to defame my character. I feel like I can trust no one anymore. Every time I do loosen up and start to trust someone, I get hurt! So it’s either be lonely and have no one, or talk to people and risk getting hurt and having my trust betrayed again.

I wish I could be different, but it’s hard to change who I am. I’m not exactly an outgoing person. I like to meet people, but I won’t go out of my way to try to find people to meet. I guess I’m scared of getting hurt and having my heart broken as it has been many times before.

I don’t know what to do anymore. Right now I’m just lonely and sad. I’m trying to make the best of my life but it’s just not working! People tell me to get out, but it’s not the kind of person I am! I’m shy, and I feel more comfortable meeting people online first and then meeting them in person eventually. Nothing is wrong with that, it’s just not everyone that I meet online is easy to trust.

Trust is the biggest thing that I have a problem with right now. I feel like I shouldn’t tell anyone anything and just keep it all to myself. Maybe that’s best…I don’t know at this point. I just hope that I will find someone that I can learn to trust and that will care for me. I have not given up entirely on finding someone yet, but I’m slowly dying inside and there isn’t much hope left…I wish someone would save me before it’s too late.